Have you ever felt the feeling of being controlled until you cant even catch your breath. Have you ever felt tired of struggling and yet if you stop struggling for the things that you want, you get abandoned. I've held onto something, a bonding that is yet to be untied. Sometimes when you think of it, it just kicks you in the stomach, and all you can do is just cry, tho you were never a cry baby all ur life, but somehow this bond feels so real, tearing all your parts.


I've been left behind once by everyone, and yet, I stood up and move on. No one was there for me. That was a wake up call for me. I did look back eventho I've moved on, and I've looked back not just once, and everytime I look back, I can feel the pain all over again. In mind, I thought I was over everything that have became my past.


Everytime you tell me that I'm special. I smile. Yet I cry. You tell me that you love me so much, just that you need more time.. But I want you to think clearly for the last time, is it the fun and excitement that you are actually looking for? I am confused yet I still got the answer in my heart. The day before I left, you ask me not to change, and that you promised that you wouldn't. I kept your words. And I was blissful just spending my last night with you. You hugged me throughout the night. Eventho I was sleepy, but you keep asking me questions so that we both wont fall asleep. I just smiled to myself. Maybe he does love me very much. But I need to prepare myself, you will leave me. I know you dont wanna be the one to hurt me, so I left myself. :).








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