SIGHSSSS AGAIN.

I'm about to start the emo talk again, so for those who arent interested pls do not continue reading :) LOL~ well,you cant blame me for being so emo.. Cuz these things need time and I stil dont know when this will finally come to an end so PLS be patient with me and let me cry out to those reading my blog.. =( Another sleepless nite again, I thk I slept at around 4 but woke up at 5 something. Its been two days already.. I read that if someone doesnt sleep within a week.. They'll die... =(  I'm so freakin tired now but I cant sleep! With myself lying on the bed i'll start thinking (you know what).... I rather choose to be awake now writing my blog just to distract me from IT. Seriously I've not been eating since yesterday.. Only plain water and when I got up this morning I cant seem to stand balanced..And I've lost 3kg.. ;) I'm not being dramatic but I really did lost 3kg in 1 whole day. hmmm..... He didnt call me yesterday, dont ask me why but he's not even trying to bring me out from misery.. I dont expect anything from him anymore. Since he thinks its not his problem that I cant get over him and yes it really isnt. Im the only one to be blamed on now and I know it, alrite? I have no one to talk to.. Not even my friends.. Cuz they wont understand what situation Im going thru and besides,why multiply their problems? I'm not sayin that they dont understand but what else can they do besides asking me to stay strong or let go? I am doing it but its just stil not working.. Sighhhh*  Friends are asking me what happened to me.. I was the strongest and most heartless among them but look at me now.. Im disappointed at myself too. Honestly when guys approach me now, I feel disgusted. Cuz they look just the same as him. This two days only my babe shirley has been hearing me cry out.. I just want her to know im waking up okay? No more hurting.. I'll promise you that.. For this I admit Im just stubborn.. No one can help me besides me helping myself.. I know someone is trying to help me out here.. But im really sorry cuz it really isnt his problem. My heart is closed. I need a friend now not a relationship. Im done with that for now.. But I think its normal for me to act like this after a break up. Its better than someone who doesnt even have feelings and stil go on with another relationship. I really admire THIS KIND OF PERSON. This maybe karma.. Looks like Im just looking at the mirror for what I did before.. Karma do exist. The hardest thing to do now is to look okay in front of my family. I couldnt bear to see them worry about me this time. Cuz Im finally feeling what they feel which I didnt previously..







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