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Wao... It's been almost a month since I came back to Malaysia.. And haven't been blogging because I just don't know what to blog about anymore. Lately things have been so tough on me. But all I have ever done is complain complain complain to my blog. At least I could just find some place to fire out all my emotions. :'(
hmmmm........ Where to begin? Lately, things have just been so shitty. Friends, relationship, emotions, stress. To start, I'm still very very upset about the thing that happened between my friend. Whenever I just listen to the song that she used to sing to me, my tears just roll down. She has been with me during my ups and downs.. Without her now, my life just died for a moment very often. I couldn't do anything much now but just hope that forgiveness will work its way up. Just wanted to say that I really miss you so much, my friend.

Going on to my relationship with my boyfriend, well, like people always say when feelings start to cool down, when the fire starts to burn down, it's time to settle down and focus on working out things together. At this stage, most people will leave the other half due to the difference in their personality that they didn't realize when the fire was burning strongly. So skipping to my point, for my situation it's like we always keep the fire burning. Whenever the fire dies down, something makes it burn strongly again, then again this is not very healthy, because every time bad things are the things that triggers the fire again. In this 2 years being with him, it's almost like a roller coaster ride. I just don't know why it's such a bumpy ride. There were so many times that I just wished to give up, but I just couldn't. He gave up on my once, that's when the strongest feeling came back again.

Sigh, stress is coming back to me again. So many things to deal with.

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